December 2013

What is the word that will guide 2013?  This word keeps coming over and over to me in my mind.  So much so that I could not stop thinking about it and it inspired to start blogging again.

Believe 

Not believe in in what I believe in like religion, Believe in people, believe in something that gives you hope.

So Believe.

May 2, 2012

Sometimes I wonder if I am invisible

Posted on May 2, 2012by Perfect Life

There is lots to write about but I am at a place where I can not find the words. I am still trying to wrap my head around this new life.

When I can put it into words I will let you know.

January 13, 2012

So what is going on for your weekend

Posted on January 13, 2012by Perfect Life

We are off to a basketball game, doing car work and then I am hanging out with a girlfriend on Sunday.

One I am glad I am going into the weekend with a full nights sleep.  I have been having sleep issue for about 2 years.  I wonder if they will ever go away?  So last night I resorted to sleeping aids to sleep.  Thank goodness it worked.  Full nights sleep!

I finished The Hunger Games this week and can I tell you how disturbing I thought it was.  The concept.  Awful.  The last book the ending just seemed to end, no explanations, unanswered questions, etc.  THAT is just awful, an unresolved book.  Grrrrr.

I am in search of something new to read.

Janaury 10, 2012

I am not even sure what to say.

Posted on January 10, 2012by Perfect Life

I am overwhelmed with life.  Really.  I am beginning to wonder if I am losing it slowly.

I work in a business where the worst part of the year is 4th quarter.  I think I barely made it.  Well, we brought the teenager a car, she got her permit. we fixed up the car.  We celebrated our 19th anniversary.  The little one, who is not so little got involved with colorguard and had strange practices, times and lengths.  Then a friend came to work part time with me and I thought this is gonna be easy. Then my car died, Dh had knee surgery and I don’t think I was truly ready for it.  I really did not think I was gonna have to do everything.  But we survived that, thank goodness for the girls, a few dear friends and some family.

But here is what really pissed me off.  So we go to this big church. Yeah we have not been good at going for over a year, but people from there are on facebook and could see what was going on.  NOT one of them asked if there was anything they could do.  My true friends stepped up and helped.  I have brought countless dinners, nursed people back to health, etc.  Not ONE could help.  Wait I take that back someone randomly stopped by, then my christmas tree was pulled out and the next day the lawn was mowed.  I am so very very grateful for that.  Really.

Then I had to put the cat down 2 days before Christmas. That SUCKED.  I still miss the damn cat.  I cant get up in the morning, take a bath, lay down without missing her.

Christmas was great and I was well taking care of.  Even my my work that gave me and awesome bonus and raise.  I was shocked. Just when I thought, ok I am done here, they thank me.  Saved them, I will tell you.

DH is on the mend and we are back to the usual craziness of water polo and colorguard.

But I am so tired.  I am overwhelmed. Loved ones keep having people die around them and other then the cat I keep wonder what now?

It felt better just to say it. 

Still Here

Still here

Posted on January 9, 2012by Perfect Life

I am still here and living life.  Lots to update which I will get to.  Just not at this moment.

Stay tuned.